Be Tru, Stay Tru, Just Be You

Glass empty, cloth soaked
A moment realized its not your day
Empty words kept saying to you
Given by others only hurting you
Hearing non-bloodlings
Say “i love you”
Trickling away
Washing the floors, cleaning the tears
Waiting for you
No more abuse, lies and blood
Like a hog cut
Soaked with salt
Lifes not a life alone
Dreams hitting into pieces, falling apart
Wishing wells full of words to say
The universe is meant for something
People are here for something
Searching for love, kindness, patience and acceptance
Opening doors to a place like heaven
Where loves all around
A day someone wants you
Expects you
And talks to you
Home is where the heart is
And my hearts to find a family
Feeling loved and accepted
And kindness all around
Like a planet with its rings
Where at a planet you first werent wanted
Friends abandoning you
Love never was there
Bonding never happened
And friends push you away
From their friends & family too
And non-relatives say to one another “I love you”
I wish i was somebody else
Every day in every way
Really bad
Its painful living a life
Anxious all the time
Wearing blood and bruises
And other peoples attacks
Sinks my heart deeper every day
Another day
Holding up barely
Barely breathing
Barely speaking
Barely eating
See love all around
But not after me
Have tried to find a family
Not knowing it was bad
Tried to know my crushes
Not knowing only wanting you another age, and not by who you are
Broken promises
Wondering too much
Being who you are
Isnt good enough to some
Will it end?
Just leave your negatives
Abusers
And friends
You thought liked you
I wished a million times for family
I wished my crush was my boyfriend
I dream of it only in dreams
Waking up forgetting a moment
You have to keep fighting another day
Those acted my friends
I could have used you
Really needed a shoulder
Needed you, somebody
Time keeps going
Dreams still flowing
I keep praying
Maybe another day my dreams
Will finally be real
Wishes come true
And happily ever after with you.

Vicious Haters: Sweet Dreams

Never gonna be you
Never gonna say
Never gonna remix
Reply to your games
I may see you but
Ill walk right by you
Time after time
I see right through you
Choose to be only me
What you are
Not at all me
To be mean
Messages harming
Words go on
On and on
Hate still lingers
But love overpowers
May the best man win
Bullys will never get it
Cause kindness and patience
Just arent them
Dont abuse what you have
When its gone
Youll only regret
Round and round
As time goes away
Miserable at themselves
Alcoholics and drug addicts
Titled cruel beyond
Wondering why there alone
Sick of them
Sick of threats
Prickling in and out of my life
People hate
For no reason
No reason at all
For days on end
Fluttering outta my mind
Wish upon a star
Dream away
Inside a shell
Cringe the morning
For dreams of good
Are now gone away
Live for today
Tomorrows another
Shut the door on yesterdays days
A fighter you are
On another fight
Being a fighter
And believing faith.

Dream a Flower

A moment one realizes a heart inside is no more
The emotions slowly go
But still linger
Dreams gone
Somebody lost
Forever
Wondering
Thinking
Seeing
Acting out
Breaking apart
Inside and out
Miss the only moments
That looked ok, beautiful and happy
Now enternity life expects things from you
Raither prepared or not
Strong or weak
And so much is happening
Raither youre cared about or not
People leave
Some you wish didnt have to
That sickness feeling
Of missing things too much
Over powers you
And kills your soul
Feeling sick
And feeling like nothing matters
Things dont come back
Ones you want back
Dont
Things you dont
Do
Acting on my outside im fine
Inside a battle rages and roaring out
So much to say and be
No ones there to see you
No one sees you for really who you are
Craving somebody who does
And craving a lot of missed opportunites
Yet still i cant feel
I cant help but to
Its always been my world
Lost and havent found
Crying in windows
Yet realizing theyll just be missed
Not a chance ever
Craving love
Craving acceptance
Craving Tamarack
Craving to see some people
Raither they hurt you or not
And forgiving those helps to rememeber
Not forgetting who they really are inside
Because some have bad and off days
Some too many
But some deserve more than a couple chances
And certain some are keeping me alive and strong
Will always fight because of them
There Inspirations
Feeling i know them more
Than they know me
Forget there not family
Now keeping distant
Sometimes when its been just you
And no one else all your life
And find true people
You feel as those make the rest of your heart as your family
An abandon child
Can take a hit
But will never forget
The hurt will bruise
Your heart, trust and soul
Cant always let go
People
Times
Places
And especially
The ones you find thinking of a lot
And love so much
When you think
Someone doesnt like you very much
As you thought they did
Much as you wanted them to
Cant be described
Love can destroy you
It can make you the happiest in the world
Why cant people all love each other?
I have forgiven
But i cant stop thinking
Of those i do care so much of
Fixing a heart
Is hard to do
Breaking it
Is easy to make
Blossom gracefully
End well
May we all find love
Peace
Family and
Friends
Hope & all dreams come true for us all
And may we ALL
Live long and prosper.

Solitude

Everyday i think of you
Nothings new
Except the pain
Another day without you
I still smile
Because of you
I still live
Because of you
Though its hard not to want to die
I still try not to attempt suicide
I keep you in all my thoughts
And think of you all the time
And hope to never lose sight of you
I love you
I miss you
I wish you were
My other half of my heart
And live together forever
Nothing could take away
My love to you of everyday
You always acted you loved me too
I only hope
Im paralyzed
Incomplete without you
I feel youre my soul mate
Its hard to focus
Live without you
My heart hurts
Everyday without you
I try so hard
Being without you
But it takes a toll
The sadness
And hurt
Alone without you near
Your not far away
But i feel youre far anyway
I cant stand the pain
It hurts everyday
I miss you
I wish you were here
I wish i saw more people
Like you of everyday
Or any
Its lonely and sad
Depressing without your laugh
Depressing without you
We belong
Theres no doubt
A life with you
Makes it whole
A life without you
Is nothing but incomplete
I believe in love at first sight
Because of love
Youre my shining star
With love
I love you
With all my heart
And always
Forever
I will.

Finding Anything

Hot air
Thick trees
Nothings really there
Just there without meaning
Bringing you down
Over and over
Eggs one on
Wants an argument
But i dont
Holding it back
Good at holding everything back
Emotions and these words all inside.

Find somebody
Find a friend
Not worrying if theyll hurt you
Or bash your ideas
Rip your heart out
Or bring you down
A million times over and over
Giving up speech
Feeling sick
Like a major head cold
I dont know how
Where to begin
When to finish
How to cope
Without somebody
In ones life
To find a friend to find
A friend you can ask anything to
Without thinking your stupid
A friend to talk to
Friends who call
A friend to be there
Believing in you
And your dreams
And not telling you to stop
Not being there only
At your best
Being there
At your best and worst
Who i am now
And
Who i want to be
That everyone seems
To have an issue with
The worlds harsh
But not in my heart
No ones playing nice
Here now
And ill find the stargate
An adventure awaiting
Aliens and others could become
A friend awaiting
Maybe im in the wrong world
As life is
What it is

To the STARGATE!

One

It doesnt take much
To understand the pain
Asking why
One stabs at you
Enjoying watching one suffer
Swallowing words
Keeping some heart
Not spitting words out
Like a venom snake
Hitting you on the forehead
Falling over like a wall
Laughing at your stupidity
Words are painful
A real deep pain
You choose to push me down
I choose to stand back up
I know your real self
The chances i showered you
If you cant apologize
I cant stand with you
Not anymore
Seeing birds fly away
I want to too
To feel my wings spread
And seeing the world
It takes one bully to hurt you
It takes an army of strength
To walk away from a person
Who shouldnt be hurting you
And the pain
A heart cant take anymore
Deeply suffering
Opened my heart
Shutting my heart
Now washing my heart

Now i push away anyone
And anything
To one it is protection
Even if something is helpful
You block it like the plague
So nothing
And i mean nothing
Can remind one of pain
Again
Like tiny stabs over and over
In ones heart
And when tears cant come
Clutch a bear
And hug until you cant feel
Your own two arms
The tears are dry
But a need for comfort
Still there
Because like anyone
Needing people
And needing those who dont hurt you
Or beat you
Or shred you apart
Or make you feel your wrong
Every chance they have
I cant find
Ill forgive
But why cant you say “sorry”?
Patching up
A broken heart and soul
Is so hard
These fragile painful pieces
Words and things
Clutter the table
Feeling a bruised alien
Feeling left out
Of things in life
Now become
Your happiness
Because no one
Not one
can hurt you
Anymore

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